The Army is messing with me.
I am done with this. I am really ready for my dh to retire already. I am very tired of someone else being in charge of our life. I’m trying very hard to retain my zen about it, and not to take it out on my poor dh. Plus, you just never know how the chips will fall. As always, the Army reserves their right to change their mind at any time.
But it’s seriously freaking me out. It looks very much like they are going to keep us here slightly longer than expected. Normally this would be a big yay, we love it here. Only now, they have almost made it impossible for me to finish my degree here. We will stay past the point where I need to transfer to my bachelor’s program, but not stay long enough to actually finish it. It is unlikely that he will be able to get a different assignment here at that point. We will need to PCS.
So either the dutchkid and I will have to stay here alone so I can finish, (oh good, single parenting while finishing a challenging degree program!) or I will have to transfer again, re-audition, and likely re-take another year’s worth of classes. I’m not even sure it’s even worth transferring here in Colorado or if I’d just be wasting my money. I’m also worried that if I don’t transfer right away I will forget all the theory stuff I have worked my butt off to learn (I have to take a transfer exam wherever I go).
It is no wonder that so many Army spouses find it difficult to get a degree. Thankfully, I will at least leave here with an associates, and have the benefit of the classes I have taken in theory, pedagogy and music history. I may have to just teach privately for awhile and hope for the best. It makes me feel like a failure, and it’s not even something I can freaking control.
Thanks a lot, Big Green. I’m so glad that we’ve put in all these years for you to screw with us.