Life has been crazy around here lately. So far this week alone I have had one light fixture explode, my desktop went kaput and now I have ruined carpet from a leak somewhere. Never a dull moment.
But do I have good news for you. I am pregnant (!). Yeah I can’t believe I just typed that either, and it’s been plenty long enough now that I should be used to the idea. Sometimes it still feels like a dream. After so many years of infertility, I had honestly resigned myself to being a mom of one. We weren’t “trying” in any sense of the word. It’s so ironic that now I have turned into the story I hated hearing when we were doing IVF: the woman who quits trying to gets pregnant and magically it happens. And let me tell you, it is a little awkward telling people who look at you and go, “but isn’t your husband deployed?”. Let me tell you about a little thing called R&R…
We are really excited, and while the dutchkid was definitely not so excited in the beginning (there were tears, I thought it was going to break my heart) she is warming up to the idea of a “little sister.” I’m trying to impress on her that brothers are just as wonderful.
The hardest part of it for me has been the definite ambivalence I feel about putting my school plans on hold. I should be able to finish my associate’s after this semester, which will help me to feel like I’ve reached a good point to take a break. So much of the rest of my future is up in the air, tied up in the Army and where we may move, whether I decide to stay home for several years again… I have a lot of strange feelings of guilt mixed with a “why now?”. I’ve worked very hard to get where I am in terms of musicianship and I don’t regret the path I’ve taken in the least, but some days I’m worried that I’ll never go back and finish. I try not to dwell on it, I don’t know what the future holds. I mostly can’t believe what a gift we’ve been given.
I hope you’ve all been well, I am so desperately behind in my blog reading I am about to just declare google reader bankruptcy. If you have a minute, tell me how you’ve been!
I’m so glad you posted! I’m always still reading.
-yoss
Wow!! When I read that title, I was thinking “no, she won’t announce she’s pregnant”. Then you did! Congrats!!!
I laughed out loud picturing the look you could give someone who directly implied you got knocked up by another dude while your husband was deployed. Bwahahahaha!
I’ve been told recently that 5 or 6 years between kids is “ideal” for them, so according to the experts you did it perfectly!
We are at MCCC at Benning for another month and a half, then we’ll have some leave before husband starts work with his new battalion at Camp Lejeune. Deployment dates are already on the calendar, but haven’t started freaking me out yet, thank god. And I just started the first afghan I’ve done in forever. Not having a true “winter” kind of kills the desire to get the yarn out, so I’m loving being a bit farther north.
Sending you great big hugs of congrats and excitement! Wish I was joining you on the baby-growing endeavor, but the best I can get from my husband is that we’ll see where things are at after he gets home from deployment. Keep your fingers crossed for baby loquita in 2013.
Congratulations! I am thrilled for you! Just thrilled! I love it.
We have been fine. Plugging along. My husband didn’t get the orders he was hoping for. Now, we are here for another year. Lots of unknowns. But, I am just so happy for you!
I am so, so, so very happy for you! Giddy, even. Congratulations!
I got pregnant with my daughter during a quick visit with my long TDY husband, so I know how you feel. Always fun to explain to people how that happened and I’ll always remember exactly where and when she was conceived.
What you wrote about you music reminded me of something a college professor once said to me when I was lamenting having to pass on a great job because the Air Force was moving us. He said, “You’ll always be a writer no matter what. No matter where you work or what degrees you have. You are a writer.”
I think he was right and maybe the same holds true for you? You are always a musician. No matter what degrees you have. No one can take that away from you. But I also totally understand how you feel. Totally.
(Just my two cents)
Congratulations, again! I’m doing a happy dance for you.
Congratulations!! I’m so very excited for you!
I got pregnant with Lucas when my husband was home for Christmas leave from AIT. So, yeah, I know about that, too.
We’ve been doing alright. God is faithful and we trust that He is sovereign and will give us the good things we need in his timing. Some days are easier to be happy about that than others. I hope you’re feeling well!
Abs is 5 years older than Jr, and it is a wonderful break in ages! I am so excited for you!!!!
Congratulations–such exciting news!
Wow. Wow! Congratulations!
I agree with Karen — you are a musician, whether you’re taking classes at the moment or not. Still, it’s hard; I’m sure you have more discipline than I do, but I always needed the kick in the pants that structured study provided.
As for life here, we are in the throes of deployment once again, and it hasn’t been that great so far. Like it ever is — ha! But we persevere.
Your Mom and I pray for you every night. It got to the point where we prayed but stopped believing that another child was in your future. Shame on us! Now our prayers are prayers of thanks to God for all His goodness, and also for the healthy delivery when the time comes. We are so very excited for you and your whole little clan.
Yeah! Congratulations!