deciding everything is falling into place perfectly as long as you don’t get too picky about what you mean by place. Or perfectly. ~storypeople
I am so relieved that I made it. The end of the semester. Finals taken. Juries finished. House clean(ish). New music to work on (Ravel! Scarlatti!) and the prospect of 5 long weeks before the next semester begins. When I saw that quote tonight, it fit my life so well. Things haven’t been going according to my best laid plans, but they are going.
Friends, I just don’t know where I am with this space. Or with my other project, which has so disgracefully fallen by the wayside. I need some time to think. My time as a blogger may be coming to an end.
Life here is good, if a little overbusy at times. Who isn’t overly busy these days? But recently when I gave myself permission to stop feeling guilty about my lack of writing (and photo taking, and blog reading) it felt wonderful. My classes are going great, I am playing at a level I have never reached before and quite honestly it consumes me. In a good way. It just doesn’t translate well into blogland, I’m afraid.
I am headed very soon to spend Christmas with my family. I can’t wait to see them, and as an interesting bonus (I think?) my mother recently moved to the bonafide boondocks. She has dial-up internet. So I couldn’t write anything even if I wanted to. But I do want to wish you a Merry Christmas! Hopefully with lots of peaceful, happy moments with your family and friends.
I will be back in the New Year, I’m just not promising when. But I will promise I won’t leave without an official goodbye. I hate it when people just vanish. And who knows, maybe after a vacation I’ll be overflowing with time and blogging energy? It’s possible. Take care in the meantime. Merry Christmas!
Archive for December, 2010
So. I got an email today from an in-law of mine. Asking me to please send a Christmas list for the dutchkid. I have been irritated by this all day today.
My dh’s family lives on the other side of the country. The majority of us abide by the “if you aren’t celebrating Christmas here, no need to send gifts” understanding. They don’t send my kid a gift, and I don’t send theirs one either. And every year, unless she’s told very bluntly otherwise, this person decides to take matters into her own hands and force the issue. Of course, because once she sends my kid a gift I feel obligated to send hers gifts. And she has three to my one. Then I start to think, well if I sent hers gifts I have to send everyone else who is there gifts as well. Because I do love my nieces and nephews very much, and I would never want someone to inadvertently say something and for them to be hurt by that. It’s all or nothing with me, either you all get gifts or nobody does. And equal opportunity offender, if you will.
BUT. I realized today that am not equally offensive to everyone, I have a double standard. On my side of the family, I tend to give gifts to my nieces and nephews without thinking about it. Granted, there are far fewer of them, and we’re going to spend Christmas with them this year, anyway. But I like to send them a little something, even if we’re not there. Why do I feel so differently on dh’s side?
Sigh. So I will be sending a small present for each of my nieces and nephews this year. Trying to ease my guilty conscience about how I like my own family so much better. I think next year I’m going to try the philanthropic route and send an email out on December 1st to say, “This year, in lieu of gifts we will be making a donation to XYZ charity in your family’s name.” Or is that just as bad? I don’t know. Sometimes I hate Christmas.
Now if you’ll excuse me, we are celebrating Sinterklaas Eve a day late (ah the joys of a child who has no idea what the actual date is) and I have to go eat a carrot and put candy in some shoes and think happy, festive thoughts. I am sure Sinterklaas would not actually be leaving candy for me, just coal.